Confessions

Long time no post, huh? Do you ever have those days when nothing goes right, you feel like crap, and have plenty of pity parties? Yeah...pretty much sums me up for the past MONTH!! I don't know if it's the change in our schedule, my constant battle with losing this baby weight, or Reeden's "fabulous" teething that set this mood for me.  One thing is for sure though, this life that I LOVE, I don't always LIKE.  It's not easy. It gets tiring always putting someone else's needs before my own.  I would never want to go back to life before Reeden, but to be completely honest, there are moments that I long for the simplicity of not having a baby. Days when it was just Daylin and I.  There are days I feel caged in, sitting on the sidelines. I have been envious of other mamas who seem to be able to do it all. Those are for sure, selfish moments, but nevertheless, those feelings do show up from time to time. However.. Those failure days, those frustrating moments, with a baby who wouldn't nap that day, or saying goodbye to spontaneous plans, with anything negative you could say about being a mother, it doesn't take long to remember why I wanted this life so badly, and why I truly love my life so much. I have so much to learn, so many areas to grow!  I have an incredible task before me, being trusted with the life of another, to raise, to teach, to love. My job is enormous, but watching my son grow up is Beautiful!!